I decided something today.
I.have.faith.in.people. I.have.faith.in.processes. I.have.faith.in.goodness.
But most of all-
I.have.faith.in.love.
I believe with everything that I have that I will meet someone who will wake up and decide one morning that they absolutely cannot live another day without me. I believe that someone will find my assertiveness to be a strength. They will believe that my faith in good intentions is the result of constant forgiveness and remittance instead of as evidence of a sheltered and simple life. They will find joy in a weed because it cross-dresses as a flower. They will push my buttons and hold me accountable for my shit. They will be my right hand, my best friend, and my favorite hello.
The idea of this is scary as hell. In fact, I probably wouldn’t want it if it was handed to me this very instant….but someday, I will find everything my Dad has told me that I deserve.
“You will meet a hundred guys who want to look at you. Look harder. You will meet 50 guys who want to kiss you. Look harder. You will meet 10 guys who want to date you. Look harder. You will find 1 man who wants to know you. And babygirl, he will be good.”
“You closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too-even when you are in the dark. Even when you’re falling.” (61) - Tuesdays with Morrie
